Competition

Everything is a competition, life pushes you so hard, you forget, why do you need to care, because of highly standardized desires. Social media just adds fuel to the fire. The final truth is in competitions, there are winners and losers, everyone can't be winners, that makes it sad for losers when you try so hard and finding out that you'll never win with effort alone and there are reasons why the winners win.

The sharp truth and it hurts.

Sub-Conscious

Progressing through life.
We walk, we run, we pass, we sneak, we blink through life.

I ask you this..

Are you the one going through Life?

Or is somebody else is progressing through it?

True Will

I am convinced of myself. I am capable when I was capable to admit incapability. I can do what I want to achieve, even though my actions or achievements are not perfect. I am aware that it is not impossible, as it is possible to be done almost perfectly by others. As I now tell you as well. Willpower is sufficient. True will of the mind. Do as it demands and it will be done.

I have true will. You have as well.

Incapability.

I have many flaws. My incapability, as is such to be a human. I have no will to work hard. Then I complain here.

My incapability to put up an effort.

The Return.

Hi, I'm back.

I...

Just so tired......

Solitude

Hello ,

There were times when people admired and respected this kind of social behaviour of being separated from society. Now it seems still so , probably.

Many seem to adopt this in search of knowing oneself through. It is a way to see everything else from a far view which distances everyone else from yourself. After that it seems so clear and opaque. It is a way to find truth.

Truth. What all we strive for.

Understanding and Comprehension

Greetings.

I have thoughts which baffles me, yet I understand that it was meant for it to baffle me. So that I could have the motive to understand it.

But then I observe that I seem to take a method which only deceives me as in trying to be another personality which is modelled from my view and desires to the world.

I lie and lied to myself.

Bye.

Hello New Year.

What a oneder , I read that somewhere.

I feel grateful for living till this new year , I thank the responsible One.

I feel so curious.

Bye.

Thoughts #446104

When will I be freed of this doubt of my reality?

I have a loomed vision on what is real and what is not real.

I understand that my mindset needs prove on what is that reality and what am I to live for.

But I know that I also live for who has lived for me and will live for me later on.

Through those smile that raise my smile and that I comprehend it is enough to live for even for just awhile.

Thoughts #46106

My greetings,

There was a moment when I had an undeniable faith in my principles and beliefs that moment was long ago, an innocent mindset. Now its quite shattered, fractured mostly crippled.

And I missed that feeling of bliss, but quite ignorant. It is quite hard to understand how did that happen. Did I miss all that I could have cherished? Is it useless to regret, now I would not know.

Hey there.

Greetings to the net.

I suddenly decided to came back here and voice out some things in my mind if I can.
I had a lot of thoughts in my head, I wished I could have shared it here but my lack of consciousness to world translation is not that very good. It gets misunderstood most than not often.

Most of us have probably thought about existence and consciousness in some part of our lives, what causes that? Well , it is probably because of curiosity and thirst for feeling of achieving something. To achieve something we need knowledge then gain power to achieve that wanting.
That is what humans are.

Others see it as a futile effort and try to leave their own marks in history, this might not be in a huge form but maybe in little ones like pieces of writings or pictures.

Others just don't care, they live their live as they want because their personality structured as that way, knowing or not knowing that their life will end someday and that will be it.

If we all look at it at a bigger scope, it is not that different between all of us. Since we are all not that different than each other anyway. All of us are the same in this, because it only seems different in how we do it, perceived differently but the same.

I'll try to leave more thoughts here next time.

I fare you well.

Fear

So much to say , yet little words to type.

If what comes from it is to preserve Life , it keeps us from Death.

Why do we linger in this pain knowing it will inevitably end?

What we see is Death none other than Life?

And is left for us to decide.

Life

Let me begin with this , I am not the one who can or deserving enough to tell you about it. Of all , I am most probably the last person on that list to tell you about it. In what I have seen and experienced which is not much , truly , less than most humans which have , I learned what Life have granted. It gave us joy , pleasure and satisfaction. We are ignorantly bliss. We suckle that sweet honey greedily. We live in the fabricated lies that we are masters. Tricked by the illusion of the powers we wield. That emptiness we have to thirst for more and all. Soon after, we will fail and take not the responsibility we should. We cast the blame to our only salvation. Life , crumbles and sheds to Death , and It took. Even Death had spared most of us many times , but our children , brothers and sisters turned victims. We fail again and again to learn , to know. We are ignorantly bliss. We turn away from the reality , the reality we are living in. We live in the charade of vain and ignorance. Torn apart reasoned of cowardice and fear. Yet , we thirst. Soon after , we will reach doom.

We , humans are parasites , wretched creatures , a stain , putrid creation , to the Source.

BACK , and Better Then Ever

Greetings , Thank you for your visit.

Let's get to the point .
I will be updating the blog again , for good time's sake. This will continue slowly. It has been sometime , life really can grab you whole , swallow you and really excrete you out the other way .
Anyway , the new posts will be up as soon as possible , preferably in this week.

Expect some changes to the blog , I am grateful for those who have visited. And read my opinions .

Fare thee well ,

Può venire presto , amore?

:)

This is for

lvynana

Will , I

Every fall of the week , I anxiously await the moment when our eyes clash in their sight. It has been days past since that early stare , one that has held me up and cast me down. Although I hope this may not be the treats that I have received in the past which have mold me today. I only hope that this feeling is not bounded to me alone. Which I undyingly care to only have the will to say "Hi."

Rise of Doom

We can see it , we can feel it , we brace for the coming fall . The world is turning far from what most of us want . The things you wish for , for your next of kin slowly washes away . Time has changed what time once had . What was before is never a ring to the now . Those that are caught in the turbulent change are burdened by the strain of Earth's wind of change . What will we and the next generation face ? In the horizon we await the glint of hope to shine ...

And so ..

This post may give you few satisfaction or dare I say , pity, as you read on , as it is about a boy who has failed in his 'responsibilities' in his life. From the beginning he always felt he was meant for something much larger than his humble life , a chance to save his family from the cracks of despair. In which he seems to have done effortlessly , quite progressively good , he gained overconfidence through this deed , it seems a bright light shines in this boy's path. 'Nothing' could have ruined this boy's future to be. Evil reaches in , seeping through the chink of armor in the boy's family. The boy was undoubtedly corrupted and turned , from the great bright light to a meaningless shadow. None are to be blamed as the boy knew it was futile. Determination is meaningless , he thought. This world has brought a weight into his soul bringing him even more down into the depths of the evil abyss of mankind.

Oh , what a great world we have...

Although how much I would have loved spewing profanities inside this post in which I have a very hard time to resist to , I will continue on exacting the deserved punishment for even this is not enough for those trespassed my line of "happiness" for they will receive the honor of my very own system of justice in this blog .

You , the betrayer in which you sneaked behind and stabbed me , for I exact eternal damnation.

You , the prejudicial hypocrite in which you perceive me but discriminate , in me you saw your hated self , for I curse you to burn in suffering as in your reflections until the end of time.

You , the proud naive mortal in which you have chosen to sit with "gods" as you see it fits you , time ticks away from you , may you regret in distress in the afterlife as you have ignorantly put yourself higher above things which even you did not see or comprehend.

And my justice have been served , may the prosecuted find their salvation , for I am not without mercy.